Risk versus Ambiguity
I loved entrepreneurship. It was my major in college and I felt like the puzzle piece that actually fit as I sat in my classes and was green lighted to be as creative and as out of the box as I could be. I still have a fascination with it. My ears perk up at the mention of a new idea or a new direction. Also I seem to have a lot of entrepreneurs in my life, people that are always willing to bounce and stretch ideas as far as they can go. Like if I had a sermon about God making you uncomfortable could I ask people to stand with hands outstretch for the length of my sermon because that’s exactly what Jesus did for us? I am discovering that I need people to reign me in, to make sure I’m relevant. I’m also pretty sure God knows this about me. I like to take big risks, I hate ambiguity. I’m ok if I fail as long as the failure is massive, if I can look at it and say wow that could have been really great, but I crashed and burned this time. You would probably not come to a sermon where you stood the whole time with your hands outstretched, but you might come if it was during reflection time and the focus was on putting yourself in Jesus’s position for 3 minutes, feeling the pain that He felt for us.
I read a great article recently about entrepreneurship in Inc. magazine. It said that the biggest obstacle entrepreneurs face isn’t risk it’s ambiguity. It’s hard not to know what happens next. That there is no guarantee point A will lead to your objective point B. I think that’s where faith comes in. I don’t know what happens next but the truth is no one does. Except God. It is up to me to surrender my fear of ambiguity and enjoy the journey and the expectancy that comes with it. And know above all that “I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you.- Jeremiah 29:11.
And I definetely think God is an entrepreneur.
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I need to write this post. I don’t know how to put this gently but I think I struggle with busyness and laziness. I look at my schedule and suddenly it’s full of things I would really like to accomplish and really don’t want to do. Why is that? I believe work is the best way to be Jesus’s hands and feet. I think it takes work to further the kingdom of God. I am excited when God gives me ideas or topics to speak about even if they need tweaking. So why do I procrastinate, put off, complain, make excuses, everything but actually work. Sometimes it seems like the more I work the more work I end up with. Now where is the optimism in that? My house isn’t clean and I’ve been doing laundry all day. My paper is only a page and a half when it needs to be five. I haven’t made anything for lunch tomorrow. And here I am writing this post. It seems like I should end this post with something encouraging but I think the thing I really need is a kick in the pants. I suspect I’ve been giving 50 or 75 percent to a lot of things simply because there are so many plates spinning at the moment. I miss that feeling of I’ve poured myslef into this, this is my best rather than the I finally finished at 2 AM and I hope it’s ok because I am about to collapse. If I choose just a few things and choose to do them well- that could be a viable solution. Maybe I should keep track of how much time I waste every day. I was just wondering if anyone else is wrestling with these things.
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